formula it is

I am going against the grain here but oh well! Danika is a formula baby. I know breast is best but it was not working. I tried. I really did. I gave it the good old girl scout try. I was pumping for a while but was not getting enough so in addition to the breast milk Danika was also receiving formula. After a week and a half of this it wasn't working either so now Danika is a strictly formula fed baby. I had a hard time coming to this decision and still am finding myself having separation anxiety from my faithful pump. After a little while I will feel more comfortable with this decision. For now I will just have to accept what it is and move on.

On another note!!! Danika's 1st christmas was wonderful!!! The whole family came over to see her.She was passed around like a little football. She tolerated everything very well. What a great kid I have!!! Darling Hubby was having a hard time with it but he was ok after a little while.

Well off to take care of the baby!! Talk to you later

Danika is here!!!!

Danika has arrived!!!! She arrived on 12/18/2009 at 9:59 am. She is 8 lb 4 oz and 22 inches long. Doc says there was no way she was coming out vaginally. She is a mellow baby. She cries when she needs to eat and when she has a dirty diaper. I have learned that I have flat nipples so it is making BF hard. I cannot get her to latch on and the pumping isn't working either. I am getting very little when I pump so she is getting more formula than breast milk. Nothing really much I can do about it but oh well. I am swollen from head to toe and now have carpel tunnel in my right wrist. I'm having pain from the c-section but thank god for pain meds. DH is helping a ton! He is so wonderful. He is doing everything. He is madly in love with his daughter. He was afraid today when changing her that he actually cried. He said he thought he was hurting her. Of course he wasn't though. She was just crying because she hates to be naked!!!! Well I am off to sleep before the next feeding

Merry christmas to all!!!!

Had a scare the other day!!!

I had an internal exam on Monday and all was well. Finger tip dilated but nothing. Hubby and I decided to do some x-mas shopping. When I was putting the bags in the car I felt something "pop" and there was a gush of wetness. I went to the ladies room and I was bleeding like crazy and there were clots. It wouldn't stop. It soaked my underwear, soaked through my jeans, and soaked onto a napkin. I called doc and at 1st they tried to act like it was "normal" to bleed after an exam. I tried to explain to them that this was not normal spotting. Girl on the phone finally (after 10 minutes agruing with me) tells me to go to the hospital. In the hospital my nurse was a early 50's lady and just keep telling me everything was normal. I told her I was having contractions (which I was) and she was telling me I wasn't. She finally felt my belly and said oh those are mild contractions. URG!!!!!!! They put me on the monitors and low and behold I was contracting. Of course through this I am still bleeding. The midwife did an exam and said I was still only finger tip dilated. The bleeding/clot passing finally slowed down and after 2 hours the contractions slowed down too. The midwife told me that there is no way to know where the bleeding came from but nurse normal insists that it was due to the doctor breaking a capiliary (spelling?) on my cervix. Through this whole thing nurse normal just acted like I was over reacting. Well to her she may have seen this before but to me it was not normal. I was so irritated with people saying this was normal. DH was hitting a nerve too through this whole thing. He was itching to come home and get me clean clothes. After saying it 3 times I finally told him that if being with me through this was so much trouble than he can leave. He got the message and sat down.

The bleeding and contractions have stopped. I spent the whole day in bed yesterday. I was exhausted so I decided to make it a relaxing day. I am a little scared to start really doing much and since it is snowing I think I will have another one of those days.

Oh Dh and I made the decision to have a c-section. Doc thinks this is a good idea. It is now scheduled for the 18th due to surgery room scheduling. I am on a cancellation list for the 16th since DH took that day off. Either way we will have having this baby next week!!!