Our 1st ultrasoun

I got the results of my 2nd beta and it was a very strong 894. My little bean is getting all snuggled in for a 9 month ride. I cannot wait to get nice and big. The doctor has scheduled our 1st ultrasound for 5/4. We are going on vacation and will be back on the day before. The vacation week will fly by and than it will be ultrasound day. I cannot wait. They are going to see if they can see a heart beat. It may still be early so if they don't see if I will go back for another ultrasound. I know I keep saying this but I cannot wait. I want to see my little embryo. I want the little heart beat. Well off to sleep. Bye for now.

2nd Beta test coming up

I have been officially pregnant since Thursday!!!! I still cannot believe it. I am going to be a mother if all works out well. I am not being naive. I know that something can still happen. I am taking it very easy and one day at a time. Tomorrow we (my bean and me) have a blood test to see if my beta (hormone HCG) level has increased. It should have either doubled or tripled since Thursdays test. I am praying that my numbers have tripled. One hurdle down and just 9 months more to go. I cannot wait!!!!

It is official

I am officially pregnant! Oh my god!!!! I have never been able to say those words before. I am truly excited. Thank you! Thank you!

Thank you to everyone who prayed for me and helped me along the way. I truly appreciate it.

Doc's office says that this is a very strong pregnancy. The beta number is 152 which is awesome! I have to go back on Monday to make sure my levels keep growing. It is still very early so anything can happen but for today and until Monday I am pregnant. WAHOOOO

Could it be? I am so scared

I gave in and POAS!!!! Guess what it was POSITIVE!!!! I have never seen a positive test before. It was a digital one so there is no mistaking it. PS I did that on purpose. I still have to have the blood test on Thursday to make sure just in case it is a false positive. Oh lord thank you for at least letting me see the words pregnant. I am praying really hard that this is it everyone.

Sorry that the picture isn't so great!!!! Tried to get the words but it is so blurry

Fighting the temptation

I want to pee on a stick (POAS) so bad. I have a blood test on Thursday but cannot wait. I am so scared that it is negative. I am not sure how I will be able to handle a negative test. Oh lord please let this one work.

Do I give in and poas or do I wait? I think I will give in and go buy some sticks. I am not strong anymore. I have been strong for to long. I hope I do not jinx it. Oh please lord that this work.

Houston we have an embryo

Sunday my little embryo was put back in the mother ship! Yup we have an embryo on board. I could not see the actual placement but my loving husband did. He got watery eyed so I knew we "conceived". I am praying that the little guy/girl will implant and grow grow grow. Hubby and I are completely attached to this little embryo. I catch myself dreaming of being big and pregnant. I even tried to calculate the due date. I am so in love with this embryo and I am scared. I am no longer guarded. I have removed the protective armour from my heart. I am vulnerable. Please lord do not break my heart. Please let this be my time. I have been good. I deserve this.

Well I am having some cramping so I am back to a horizontal position!!! Bye!

Tomorrow is big day number 1

I have finally gotten to retrieval day!! Tomorrow I have my surgery to remove the eggs. I have not produced a ton of eggs like others but the ones I have will be great. So hurtle number 1 down and 12 more to go. I am praying that everything will be great and I have confidence that it will be. Eggs should be put back in either Sunday or Tuesday.