Fighting the temptation

I want to pee on a stick (POAS) so bad. I have a blood test on Thursday but cannot wait. I am so scared that it is negative. I am not sure how I will be able to handle a negative test. Oh lord please let this one work.

Do I give in and poas or do I wait? I think I will give in and go buy some sticks. I am not strong anymore. I have been strong for to long. I hope I do not jinx it. Oh please lord that this work.