Day 6 of IVF

Yesterday was the BIG egg talk day. I don't think it worked out the way I expected. Doc really stressed that she will put two eggs back in if that is REALLY what I want. She suggested one but if I REALLY wanted two she will do that. She said she will do that before the government decides to start regulating this whole process because of that idiot in CA. PS don't get me started on that whole mess in CA. That will be another post once I know if her decisions will affect me.

So here I was happy as a clam thinking I am going to finally get my two eggs. Without me knowing this, through out the whole conversation hubby was shaking his head and wording one egg to the doctor. He was sitting behind me so I had no clue what he was doing until Doc says that we as a couple need to make this decision. I whipped my head around so fast I think I got whiplash. I knew he was against two eggs but I did not think he would do that to me.

He has children already so he only wants one baby. I understand this but haven't I have been through enough to increase our odds of having a baby and not EVER doing this again. I don't want two eggs so that I can get more than one baby. If we have two fine if we have one fine as well. At this point I want two eggs so that I do not have to do this ever again. He cannot seem to get that. I look at it this way. One egg the chances of that sticking is 40%. Two eggs the chances of one sticking is 80% but chances of having twins is only 40% (I believe that is what doc said). More people who have put two eggs back in have only one egg stick than have twins.

This whole process has been so much fun why wouldn't I want to do it all over again!!! Yes honey I can see your point and would love to continue sticking myself with needles, gaining more weight cause of this lovely medicine, getting facial hair where none was before, and having everyone and their brother seeing my privates just so that you don't have the increased chance of having more than one baby with your wife. NOT!!!!!!

He is not budging on this and I am not either. I cannot say where we will end up at in the end but right now we are at two different ends of the house with minimal contact. We will work this out like we always have but I cannot say when nor what the out come is. We are going back to the psychologist on Monday for another session so I am hoping she can help me see his point and him mine. Who knows. I am going to try and not think about it today. I have had no sleep and I am exhausted.